Tuesday, March 19, 2024

--Consequence-- day 12

--Consequence-- 











Consequence, a dread hangs over me, a fear so deep i can not sleep 

Sleep becoming tough as i find my will is shakened

in the face of this beast i have made my bed forsaken

I don't know why i was so foolish and lacked common sense, 

the sense of the (wo)man that have no life friends 

why harm life in such ways to build such an army 

an army of my demons there here and they found me 

the demons is myself as my thoughts, feelings, and emotions 

the mind as the enemy oh no that has always been my homie 

so good and so glad when all was going well, 

but when consequence came a knocking, i knew it was going to be hell 

though this is not the fate of all, oh no, there is courage 

the courage to face self where we are called, oh let's hurry 

called by life itself 

no more games no more playing, time to strap my boots on and build that will 

brick by brick, word by word, step by step 

self forgiveness is here and will be our sure siren 

sirening us to move and take action before it's too late 

consequence is here, sorry death is no escape

Monday, March 18, 2024

Little birdie blue and a pear - day 11


Little blue birdie sitting on a perch





Smelling the air, it seeks out its lover

Who just landed on a pear 🍐 

The pear sits there for anyone to take

Unconditionally it gives no matter the snake

The snake comes and slithers, and digs his fangs in

It sucks up the nutrients and begins his journey again

The pear half eaten falls onto the ground,

Where the blue bird flys and eats some he found

It was splattered across the pavement as the pear fell to earth, 

with no one hearing its whistle

he knew where this would go, no worry no cause, life does go on

it's out the bum of the bird and the snake who had there fill for this day

The blue bird flys away full and sustained, and grateful he was as he meets his mate again

Thursday, March 14, 2024

-the mighty discipline- Day 10


i strive for excellence, when the flow is for negligence, why do i allow such hardship and danger

the breath is here for all to grasp and live, but self kick back and just relax like who cares! 

relax we can, but duty call, this life is for all, come one and come all 

discipline is the name of this life practice self walk

a lonely road though it's got it's costs 

cost far greater then any could imagine 

cause it's real and its grander then what the books call 'climbing the ladder' 

no need to climb or tussle and bussle 

but step by step action is all you need to stay out of trouble 

life is here to guide as the beacon it is 

self can forgive and be silent, for sure, i am here 

it's not for the faint of heart but strong in one's valor 

discipline oh discipline a mighty friend indeed 

give it one's all and answer that call, the discipline of self is waiting 

Tuesday, March 12, 2024

A Hope - Day 9



a hope -



 a hope is a dream that will never manifest 

don't' hope but live as this is one's resonance 

the resonance is the core of self in a sound environment 

life is the breathe that give one value here 

don't waste this breathe as it's the key to eternal bestowment 

i stand as one among many who are all that's meant 

meant for life living, but we're(Self) not there yet

don't give up, don't give in, persevere young student, you can sit when you stand!

Tuesday, March 5, 2024

what is the point - day 8

 what is the point



what is the point to anything that's done


why do the things done have to have a point


is the point to make a whole lot of money


is the point to win big and show off your honey


is the point to become star and reap the rewards of the rich and famous


or is it to be 


here free


where self is the start and the end


where there is life from the center rippling out to the eternal


i know this is who i am, time to live it to become it again

Monday, March 4, 2024

Standing in the dawn - day 7

standing in the dawn




 i stand in the dawn of my actions of the day 

i have not filled my keep, no i have given it all away 

to a blindness that seeps and seeps until it drowns out 

this blindness it comes no shadow no doubt 

it test the self that is the truth of the breath that gives life 

I squander so easily this breath as life shows full out 

as i hear screams, and crys, and wales, and horrors, is the life of the human - we have come and we've conquored 

not the correct conquering i have realized in disgrace, as life is me and i will see the squander i've allowed to the end 

it's sad as a life that did not give it's hand, the hand of another as it grasp in a care, a caring hand is what is needed especially in the end. 

the end of the lies and dishonesties of self, the truth to stand throughout as this is all that we have by word and by mouth

the gift of life is true and self face this grace, amazing grace it'll be when the child care is seen without.

Wednesday, July 26, 2023

Day 6 - drugs




I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that drugs are a solution in any way of the self honest person (based on one’s self honesty) and use drugs to hide the actual desire and rancidness that exist as me to fuck around and not live the point of self support necessary to stop the addiction to energy as high, and make a place and reality that supports all life through the principles of equality and what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind where I believe it is helping me and transforming my body internally to a way where I am helping this process to become more aligned and best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am in control and directing myself when on drugs, when I could clearly see that I was running chaotically and addicted to the experience I was getting from it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do drugs and weed when I understood it was a tool for the mind programs and to enhance the minds ability to possess me in my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire drugs to fill a void within that I am doing something of value for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself in to believing that I am doing something of worth on drugs instead of stopping and realizing I am harming my physical body and the abusive outflows such as outburst that occur when I am off them. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct myself within chats and principled living talk while in my secret mind on drugs and using drugs to help me to be better and more then.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with my peers in group and believe that drugs are helping me with an edge to get over on the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unworthy and use drugs as a way to fill the void and experience myself as able to compete with my reality.

I commit myself to stop any and all drugs where I am behind the scenes competing and in delusional states of chaos.

I commit myself to stop weed forevermore.

I commit myself to educate others on the brutal nature that comes out through drug use and that the purpose of life is not to get high but bring about a world that is best for all life as best for oneself.

I commit myself to educate others on the consequences I face where my life is forever damaged from this and will have to face and live with consequences that I didn’t see or expect, but are here and not best for all life.